1st of May --- Labour Day

Today is the 1st of May...
is one of the day that almost everyone awaiting for it...
this is because it's a day that most of the people who works everyday at last can rest on the day...
It's Labour Day...^^

but....
it's another boring day for me as my ah mate already went home yesterday and i am alone here...
luckily still got miss hsiu hsiu and miss chaijie here to my room...
haha....

miss my home very much...
waiting for next week to come because next week is my turn to back home...
my home sweet home...
a place that can protect me and won't let me get hurt...

i miss my mummy...
i miss the dishes that my mummy cook...
i miss a lot a lot......

today...
have to spend my time wisely again because time is expensive...
once time pass, it will not come back anymore...
thus, i must start to plan my day now...

morning i already finish my room cleaning...
after room cleaning, my eye suddenly feel very itchy, so just lay on the bed let my eye have a rest..
who knows fall asleep again...
hehehe....

woke up when miss suffie came to my room to call miss hsiu hsiu for lunch...
i didn't follow because when i think of the food in cafe, i also will feel disgusting...
so, i prefer to eat cintan mee in my room...
cintan added with chili sos...
nice nice~

after lunch, started to think what should i do today to spend my day wisely...
emmmmm........(???^^???)
haven think of it yet, but.....
gambateh to myself..
i sure will spend my day wisely....^^

Today~~~

Today, my ah mate back home alone....
and here, i also will be alone for about 3 days...
wuwuwuwuw~~~~

today, class ended at 11am also...
this is because our lecturer was absent again...
hahaha...
so happy...
and we followed our plan...
went to Carefour for shopping because i wanted to go to the pet shop nearby to buy my boy boy a new bowl....
eager to know how it will "treat" the bowl...
^^

then we went to have our lunch at MCD...^^
have a sundae cone...^^
happy~~~~~ =D
after the ice cream , enjoyed the spicy fried chicken...
hu~~~~
very very very full again...

cannot already larh....
really really need diet already...
my tummy...
i don't want let him call fatty...
hehe..XD

then we went to Carrefour for a walk...
the 1st time we shopped for that short while...
hahaha...
although just back on 6.30pm...
but is the 1st time we went Carrefour and back by bus,
if not normally we need to take a cab back...
haha...
then, chat with yoga for about an hour only went for my bath...
hehe....

and there goes my day...
a normal day that made me miss him a lot...
a normal day that made me miss my mummy a lot...
a normal day that made me miss my boy boy a lot...
a normal day that made me tire too....
(@.@)

Tire day actually...

haiz...
yesterday didn't sleep well again...
don't know why, woke up in the night again...
i also don't know how come i will woke up...
haiz...
after that i just under a blur blur situation...
also don't know after that, i myself got fall asleep again or not...

but in the morning, still can woke up earlier than the time that i had set the night before i slept...
so did i sleep for the night??
i also don't know...

went to class on 11am...
Maths class...
after that have BC class from 2.30pm till 3++ pm...

huh....
the whole college blacked out...
luckily the weather was nice...
it rained heavily...
at least won't so hot...
what a nice and comfortable weather...

back hostel...
feeling tire..
while smsing, already fall asleep until he message me...
(this shows that actually i am very tire)
woke up with a (@.@) face and answer the questions that he asked...
hehehe...
don't know whether i answered correct or not...
hehehe....

it's a tire day actually...
miss him so much.....

Ice Cream = Happy mood~~

after class by 12.30pm,
after rest in the library while waiting for my friends to copy down the math question that i have found accidentally, went to cafe with ChaiJie...
bought an ice cream...

hahaha...
so nice...
chocolate ice-cream~~~
every time after ate an ice cream, will feeling nice...
so happy....^^
next time when i am in a bad mood, just buy me an ice cream then i will be very happy already...
hehe...^^

happy mood made me even miss him and my mummy...^^

than i have a short nap after my lunch because already very very very tire...
nearly couldn't wake up from the nap...
what a sweet nap....
after rolled on the bed for some time...
forced myself woke up from the bed, washed my face...
and start to do some revision...

then~~~
^^
went to miss hsiu hsiu room to return her CD...
started to chat in her room...
chat about ghost story, chat about the camps that we went before...
wuwuwuwuwu~~~
hahaha ><
then, she asked me whether want to have KFC as my dinner or not...
after wondering for few minutes...
at last...
all of us want for it...
at 1st, because of the Indian friends who stay next door to me brought not enough money, so the KFC fly away...
who knows, KFC fly back again when one of my course mate with car came to us,
she wanted to eat so she went out for it and 'da bao' for us...
waited for so long, so hungry....
finally, KFC reached....
^^v
but...
this is the first time i ate KFC needed so long time...
i ate for about an hour...
My God...
started to eat at about 8++ pm but 10pm only finish it...
hu~~~~~

very full now...
stomach already big big because of too full....
need massage and diet already larh...=/

a quite happy new come to us is...
tomorrow can wake up later than usual because our class will only start at 11am..
but bit sad because end at 4pm...
maybe will be another tire day again....
=l

Classes~~~

yuhuu~~~
at last last night get a nice sleep...
although got dream of something again...
but, at least can be said that it's a nice dream...

morning, woke up as usual...
then my ah mate got a message from our KO...
she said that our tutorial class can enter bit late, so we enter the class 10 minutes later than usual...

i messaged him happily, told him that today my class will end on 10am...
but haiz.....
who knows.....
we have tomorrow class replacement from 11am to 1pm...
which means 30 minutes later i will having class....
which means i have to prepare to enter class already....

have to go...
any story that happen today only i continue after that...

Miss him lot lot~~~

Already tire but + tire again~~

Today, woke up on time...
have a deep sleep yesterday night..
luckily midnight didn't woke up because of mosquitoes again...
but, i know that i have a nightmare again...
haiz....

i dream that i went for a doctor...
the 1st time, get injection...
back home, already one week but not recover yet, so went for another time....
the 2nd time, injection again...
the nurse there still laugh at me and tease me said that i so big girl already still scare of injection...
fine....
i really scared of injection cannot arh...
why?
because got one time when i got a high fever, i went for the doctor alone..
went inside, doctor asked the nurse to get the needle, asked me be prepared for an injection...
that time, i really afraid of and so hope that someone beside me for me to hold...
but so sad, there no one other then the nurse standing aside laugh at me........
again, high fever for the 2nd time..
this time dad fetched me go...
but he got things to buy so he left me alone in the clinic...
before he leave, i still ask my father whether i will get injection again as i already very scare...
my dad still say won't...
who know...
went inside, the doctor scolded me that i already get so high fever why still went for him so late...
then.......
injection again.....
T.T
both of that times onward...
i bit afraid of doctor already...
yesterday some more have that dream...
haiz....

Morning....
went for classes...
today classes end up by 1pm....
i sms him told him that our badminton competition was canceled...
haha ...
so happy with it cause i really tire and really no energy to have that competition anymore...

then my friends ask out for a visit to the shopping mall because Aniu and Jet will come to the shopping mall...
because wanted to buy Mother's day present so i followed...
went there, just sat at there see they playing games and listened to their song...
normally, when got any artist here, i will be very high...
but today i totally didn't have such energy to get high...

then, all my friends wanted to go for the Ice Kacang Puppy Love movie...
at 1st i don't want to watch, but left me alone...
no choice, followed them...
luckily the show still nice and meaningful...
in the cinema, when watching the show...
i miss him and my mummy so much...
haiz...
after the show, i sms him again...
through our chat i told him that i miss him very much, but who know he said he didn't miss me...
haiz...
also never mind already larh...
i also didn't have so much energy to be sad already...
I miss him enough already larh....

really tire....
my plan - on the bed by 10.30pm.....
but sleep on 11.00pm...

Tire~~~
Exhausted~~~

Again, Tire~~~

yesterday night before sleep, actually hope to hear his voice, but then........

then i called to mummy....

chat with her for about half an hour...

when chat with mummy, nearly cried out again...

miss mummy so much...

miss my home so much...

miss ah boy so much...

miss him so much too.... =)

after chat with mummy, i taught i will have a deep sleep as i already tired for the whole day....

the clock showed 11.30pm....

the time that i laid down the bed...

before sleep, i asked miss hsiu hsiu to switch off the switch before she leaves my room cause my ah mate and i already wanted to sleep....

3am in the morning...

woke up from my nice dream...

because of mosquitoes again...

felt weird as i remembered that i already switched on the mosquito repellent before i sleep...

woke up and see....

miss hsiu hsiu arh miss hsiu hsiu...

she switched off the mosquito repellent switch also...

haiz....

7am, woke up...

luckily this time didn't late for assembly again...

huh~~~

but, suffer in the hall for an hour...

what the.......

the hall's air-con was not functioning yet...

so so so so hot....

as he said...

'hot hot' me already sweat till my hair almost wet.....

after suffer for an hour, at last, the assembly end....

today will be whole day having class....

but our brilliant KO...

hehehe....

thanks to our KO...

i sms him told him that now waiting for the news wether got class or not...

after KO talk with the lecturers...

the class after 1pm all no more...

wahahaha, so nice as i can rest more already because i felt that my body getting weaker and weaker...

i know i need more rest....

reach hostel, i was so tire..

he ask me to lay on bed for rest, but i dare not cause i know i will sure fall asleep....

i planned on what should i do for today....

i must use the time wisely...

cannot waste time anymore....

and i know....

once i get things to do then i won't thinking too much...

and night i will easy fall asleep as already very very very tire....

hahaha...

my plan - 10.30pm lay on bed prepare to sleep...

but, i think for me i will also wait till almost 11.30pm only will sleep i think...

hehehe.... X)

miss mummy...

miss my home sweet home...

miss him so much now...... @^^@

will miss him but won't be a patient...

Cannot sleep,

woke up early in the morning,

after expressing here,

i used the time to read books...

just finish one of it...

now feeling good....

lazy worm haven't totally away,

but...

i must do something so that won't waste the day....

as what he told me...

don't just miss him like a patient...

as i also don't want my dear doctor to worry about me....

so,

i will do something and i will miss him while i am doing my things.....^^

new day starts = new life...

gambateh to myself...

^^

Tire~

haiz...

slept at 3am last night but woke up at 6am in the morning...

so tire...

really don't know what happened to me...

tire but can't sleep...

neck very pain...

heart very pain...

early morning, sitting here...

doing nothing...

just can post and expressing myself over here...

a boring day...

planned to do all my things so that next week won't be busy...

but...

loose the mood to do...

told myself to cheer up, but....

maybe because of lazy worm come on me again...

lazy worm, 'xiu xiu xiu' go away....

on the moment, i miss my home very much...

miss Klang very much...

i am thinking of...

if i back home, can i meet him?

really miss him a lot...

just hope that can meet him,

but.....

seems like won't have the chance cause he needs to work...

very hope that once i reach the central, can see him waiting there for me and bring me home just like what one of my friend did that day...

but.................

haha...

i am thinking too much of that, that's impossible....

early morning, mood should be good,

but because of tiredness, made me just can be like this ---> =.=zZzZzZ

Believe it or not just depends...

say didn't get hurt is bluff...

when i get to know...
sure will bit get hurt...

but cannot blame anyone as i also willing with it...

what still can i do...

nothing much....
as i already really no more energy...

read many love story before...
all with a happy ending...
but that is just a story...
a story that impossible will happen in this reality...
in the reality, there is no true love that will last long forever....

not the girls problem sure will be the guys problem...

not believe?
u can have a try on it..
but before u try it,
advice you,
that's not a nice feeling and not a nice experience...

(see this from quite a number of my friends)

but...
for me, the feeling of me to him will not fade away that easily as i already put everything on it....

i will never ever forget the star that you told me that night...

look at it and just make a small wish for myself...

i already don't mind what will happen next...

Love someone~

Loving some one...
need to understand each other,
need caring,
need to say sorry but also need to say thank you,

Loving some one...
is accept but not endure,
is tolerant but not connive,
is support but not control,
is unforgettable but not forget,
is earnestly hope for opposite side but not demand a lot from opposite side,
is romantic but not waste...

once start to hold, don't simply let it go anymore


(read this from my fren)

curse of 3 months

although i know that i should think positively..

but say truly...
i already start losing my confidence...

i don't know why...
just got the feel this few days....

and will i break the curse...??

cannot said that it is a curse,
but,
when every time i want to have it stable
and normally it will not more than 3 months...

1st time exactly 3 months,
2nd time also exactly 3 months....

and this time....
i had counted till the month of it, also 3 months....

so what still can be said about it???

maybe after this time i will not have it anymore,
cause it's not a nice feel....

Think positively

Today, during moral section...
our ELP lecturer had shared some meaningful things with us...
which is....

THINK POSITIVELY

through those videos that he showed us, i learn this....

THINK POSITIVELY

Cherish Yesterday
Dream About Tomorrow
Live In Today

ya, i totally agree with all the things that Mr Mohan said...

we should think positively in everything...
we should cherish what we have...
we should have our own dreams...
we should do what we should do by the day...

he also told us that we need to....
love ourselves
believe in ourselves
we will get what we want once we believe in ourselves...
we will success once we believe in ourselves...

Thus, THINK POSITIVELY

Friends....

Just now, after finish my post here...
already started a bit moody...

Weng Hou messaged me...
and he straight away called me after i asked whether he free and able to make call or not....
when listened to the phone...
at first feel weird cause i heard a girl voice...
haha....
Shu Wen is over there...^^

chat with her about my situation here...
got few times when talked to her, my tears also nearly drop down...
chat with her a lot, and i felt released....=)
then she passed the phone back to Weng Hou, the owner of the phone...
Hahaha...
after chat with him, he passed the phone to Joe Way...
haha
glad that today can chat with them altogether on a time...
haha...^^

on that moment, when they passed the phone to others to chat with me,
suddenly felt like i am a friend that at oversea and to make a call very expensive, very hard only can talk to me, so keep passing the phone and asking i want to talk with who who who...
haha...

after talk with them...
my mood become much much much more better...
so happy that i can have a talk with all of them...

and, these are those friends that i mention....
the gang...
the gang that always by my side...
the gang that always support me...
the gang that cares me lot....
the gang that always make me laugh....=D

thanks God on giving me such nice gang of friends...^^

Shu Wen,
Weng Hou,
Joe Way,
Huey Hsien (although didn't talk with you but at least i heard your voice over there, hehe ><)

Thanks very much my friends...
miss and love you all so much larh...^^
See you all soon...
Gambateh in study ya....
i am here supporting all of you...^^
Good Luck...=)

same feeling visit me again

the same feeling comes to me again and again...

and now, it visits me again...

am i thinking too much?
i force myself not to think of it again...
but...
i can't...
i tried to ignore that feeling again and again but why.......??
can someone tell me WHY!!!???

sometimes i asked myself...
is it good for me to have such strong 'sensor'
sense those feelings...
it just will cause i myself get hurt...
but why...??

hope that this time something goes wrong with my 'sensor'
hopefully..................

Today~

Early morning i get a called from my mum, and maybe because of this call made me down mood for the whole day....

ask me why i so down today...
actually i also don't know...
what i know is i very tired and lazy to talk so much....

today, 5 of the friends from England enter our class again...
but i am so lazy to talk with them...
but i still got too....

after class, i message him and told him about my situation now...
and i am so happy that by the time now i still have him...
for me to complain on everything...
Thanks God that i still got him...
and thanks to him that listen to me and comfort me....

after a short nap...
awake by the thunder...

my mood become better much much more.....
feel good...^^

at last...

huh....
luckily didn't take a nap...
at last get back his call....

luckily....
he made me so worry....
but now can release already...^^

felt happy when heard his voice...
and even made me miss him more....

@><@

the book....

just finished a book while waiting....
and the book seems exactly telling the story about us...
although the incidents that faced my the characters in the story is different from us,
but the conclusion is just the same...

recall back the moments we had together and the incidents that happened since few months ago...

after read the book...
it take my time for me to digest and now what i get from it is....

without trust worthy, what for be the friend...

actually it is depend on how we approach it...
and now....
we just like the water that had been poured out, cannot return anymore...

we just like the strangers now....

what we can do is just prevent unhappy things to happen again...
others....???
don't want and dare not bother anymore....

Now......

the clock on the table shows 14.45now...
i have been waiting since 13.20...

once i finished my class, the 1st thing i did is let him know that i already finished my class....
but i didn't get any reply...
when i realize about the missed call, it's already 13.19...
i message again after i finished my lunch, but didn't get any reply too...

back to my room, i made a call, but seems like the phone has been off....
thinking, wondering and worrying....

i dare not take a nap even i already very tire...
yesterday night i didn't get enough sleep as i get very terrible flu and suffer from it...
this cause me in a rush this morning because couldn't wake up on time...
in class, busying doing the worksheet that lecturer distributed and can't give him a message....
he message me but i can't reply as lecturer talking in front...
he called and i can't picked up the phone too...

and now i know the feeling that he said this morning....
wondering and worrying.....

i am so tire but i dare not to close my eyes as i scared that i miss the message again....

its 14.56 now...
and....
i still waiting, wondering and worrying~~~

Form 6 memories...

Today....
few of my course mate asked whether want to go for the activity that they planned on the next weekend...
and this made me re-flash back on the memories that i had in STK...

miss that time so so so so much.....

the few weeks before i am here...
still schooling....
at STK....
for my form 6...

after the orientation week, had the co-curriculum week...
and i attended some of it...
and each of it we had tasks to do which is plan an activity and others...
the first time i did that...
and because of i get this, so i just can only involved in one of the task...
the activity still can be said well planned...
and at last can be said successful...

the weeks before the day of the activity...
i went for many seniors
asked them to participate the activity...
and because of this, i get to know more seniors...

6B3, my lower 6 class....
the gang that always sit behind of the class...
the gang that always tease each other....
the gang that always talk and didn't pay attention when teacher is teaching in front...
the gang that went to tuition together....
the gang........

miss......
miss the place, things, people.............
miss the moment that we talk, play and study together..

miss all of it very very very much....

my friends.....
although i am not there anymore....
but.....
i will miss all of you very much...
i will never forget the moment when we are together...

gambetteh to all of you in study....
good luck in everything...

Tomorrow

Tomorrow.....

stranger will be back...
how to face the stranger? (TSH)
haiz...

this time...
if the stranger mum come to us again...
i will block her outside my room...
or...
i will ask her out if she step into my room...
and....
i will say....

"Aunty, not i didn't respect you; refuse to talk to you; don't let you in my room, but, is my parents already gave me permission, don't bother you and your crazy child anymore..."

i will say this to her, i swear, i will.....!!!

and i already be prepared not to talk much to the stranger when see her...
(can i?)

if i softhearted again, mostly i can't...
how?

i don't care...
i will do that...
because i don't want myself cry and cry and cry again because of her...
this is not worth for me and of course for all of us to worry and cry for...

i don't want those who cares me worry about me...
especially my parents, all my family members and of course dear Weiwei

so....
i keep telling myself....
not to bother, pity and softhearted anymore (but of course is to her only)

i will be stronger...
=)

Touching~~~

老公啊，我们什么时候能结婚啊？ “老公啊，我们什么时候能结婚啊？”女人一脸好奇的问，从声音分辨，她是很轻快的询问！他们在一起时间不久，两年而已，相处两年的情侣到处都是，随便就能抓出一大把，而现在的人，能有几个在交往的时候考虑结婚的？
“现在工作上也没什么突破，过两年吧！”男人轻轻柔柔道！
“哦！”没有失落亦没有兴奋，似乎预料中！
“老公啊，那假如有孩子了怎么办？”
“你有了？”男人严肃的握住女人的手，眼神犀利的盯住她！
“你抓痛我了啦！”女人喊了出来.“我是问问而已，有了我会告诉你的！”
“老婆，你记得，以我们现在并不适合要孩子，经济上也许可以不用顾忌但是心理上还无法接受，养育一个孩子不是养育一只小宠物那么简单；如果有了要告诉我，我会陪你去医院的，明白吗？”听了女人的话，男人放下心来，也柔下声音来对女人说着自己的观点！
“你放心好了啦，我不会那么不注意的，即便是有了也不会瞒你的，嘿嘿！”女人清爽的声音再度响起！但在心底，女人不知道是否该赞同男人的话，彼此工作其实都不错也算稳定；已经多次思考过，男人只是交往初期提到过结婚，而当彼此交往变得稳定后就没有涉及过婚姻；女人虽然大大咧咧但不是真的傻！其实真不知道他们之间的问题到底出在哪？是不爱吗？虽然感觉不到爱却也没感觉到哪不爱，也许是时间让彼此都沉静了！现在他们住的房子，一半是女人出钱按揭的；她习惯平衡！平日逛街，他也从来没有陪过她，她从来不觉得有什么不舒服，毕竟习惯自娱是最容易快乐的方式，这时候却想到这个动作是否也能衡量他的感情。

“老公啊，今天你陪我逛街好不好？你还从来没陪我上过街呢！”女人撒娇的说.

“忙呢！乖，怎么今天想到要我陪了？”男人漫不经心的问！
“那你要不要嘛？”
“自己去吧，要买什么自己去提款就是！”男人的眼光始终专注在文件上！
“老公，我突然想嫁给你了，怎么办？”清纯美丽的小脸上闪亮的大眼无辜的望着男人；这句话把男人的注意力拉回到她身上。男人望着眼前这个没被现实的残忍划下太多痕迹的女子，隐隐的不耐与无力！
“那张纸对你来说是什么意义？”男人放下手上的工作打算和女人好好的谈一次！
“不知道！想和你结婚跟那张纸有牵连吗？”
“你想结婚不就是想要那张纸吗？”男人牵动了下眉。
“如果你那样想也可以啦，你有没有想过和我结婚？其实也是在问你的未来有没有把我算在内！”依然是轻快的声音。
“从一开始我就是打算和你一直走下去的，你不会不明白。”男人间接的回答。
“你从来没有直接的回答过我的问题耶，不管是怎样的问题都好！”女人把声音放到很嗲；“好了啦，不跟你讨论了，免得气死我自己！嘻嘻，那我自己去逛街啦，不要你陪，哼！”话音一落，她拿起包以轻快的姿态走出房间！
身后的门一关上，原本笑意盈盈的脸瞬间沉下来，换上一脸苍白与哀愁，眸底有着让人捕捉不住的幽晦迷离！迈出脚步，缓缓的走在人潮拥挤的路上，脑子里一片空白却也塞满了思绪，一直都以为自己是很快就能过渡伤害放大欢乐的开心着，这次用尽了力气，却做不到；泪水直流！有的时候不甘愿输给命运却不得不屈服于宿命！

快乐的妖精这会，不快乐！哭够了，收起眼泪扬起笑脸，冲到步行街给心爱的他选了十套西服十件衬衣十条领带十个胸针十双袜子十双鞋子，信用卡几乎被刷暴，但是她笑得看不到眼！这时候的她，又是一个精灵，能感染人的精灵！

东西太多扛不了，只好打车回去！得意洋洋的向他炫耀自己的战绩，他看到那么多的衣服，嘴角边隐隐的抽搐，看着身旁这个做事向来一鸣惊人的她不知做何反应！
“老公啊，这些都我挑的，不错吧？”看着自己挑的西服她自我陶醉，对自己的眼光她向来自信！
“老公啊，这些衣服记得已经慢慢穿哦，今天看到好看的心血来潮就帮你买了！哼，你要敢说一个不喜欢的字眼，我就让你吃不了兜着走，听到没？”插着腰威胁，故意板起那张娇滴滴的脸！
“好！我不说不喜欢，但是你买这么干什么？你怎么总是那么浪费！”男人语带指责。
“哎呀啦，老公，反正都已经买了你骂我也没用啊！你就多疼我一点也喜欢上这些衣服吧，好不好嘛？”撒娇的摇着他的手，一脸的委屈状！他回她一个无奈的眼神，揉揉她的头发；
“好好好！你呀，以后记得别这样了听到没？否则就算你撒娇我一样不饶哦！”
“恩恩恩恩！”拼命的摇晃着脑袋！
嘿嘿．．．嬉嬉．．．”女人一直在咧着嘴傻笑个不停，男人见状亦拉开嘴笑了出来，他的女人太可爱了，和个孩子一样无忧，也有成熟女人的知性；有“妻”如她，还有什么不满足？他在心里也在琢磨着见家长的事，一直都不再提起结婚的事只是想给她一个惊喜，当初在一起的时候，他就下定决心娶她！



“老公啊，我这个月回家去陪我妈妈好不好？毕业到现在我都没有在家好好呆过呢，妈妈好想我了，我怕弟弟娶到的老婆欺负我妈，我要回去好好‘教育’弟弟去！”晚上的时候她楼着他，手在他身上挠着痒痒，他边逃开他的魔爪，边取笑：“你终于有良心记起妈妈啦？”

“嬉嬉，人家我可是乖乖女咧！老公，我买了明天中午的机票，这段时间你可要好好照顾自己哦！”
“原来你是有计谋的啊，我说你怎么忽然对我那么好！”男人假装凶神恶煞！
“哈哈，你装的都不像了啦！讨厌...”
笑声溢满整个世界！
半个月过去，男人耐不住没有女人在身边的空寂，思念她的调皮，想念她的体温；拨通她电话，男人细声细语的磨女人赶快买票回来！电话里她清爽如银铃般的笑声回荡在整个脑海里令他眼圈犯红！
“老婆，你回来好不好？我们结婚吧！”
电话另一头刹那静如死寂！“你，不是不想娶我的吗？”沉默过后，女人轻轻的问！
“我不是不想，我是想在适当的时候给你一个惊喜，只是还是熬不过思念先说了！”男人解释着！
“嬉嬉，好啊，你等我回去好不好？”女人恢复精灵样！似乎得到了全世界一样！
继续半个月过去了，男人见女人迟迟不归，再次拨通电话；这回电话响了好久才被接起，却是女人的弟弟接的，男人询问他女人怎么还没回来，弟弟说她那里还需要处理点事，还没那么快能走开，告知很快就回，请他别挂心！

再半个月后，男人接到来自女人弟弟的电话，电话里，弟弟让他马上过他们家去，说女人有事！男人吓到了，定好机票如箭般飞奔机场！
到了x市，女人的弟弟接机，弟弟一眼就认出男人，一路沉默的把男人领到医院；不祥的预感笼罩着男人，病房门开，女人瘦弱苍白的脸震撼住男人，心猛的被狠狠的揪了一把，绞痛难耐！拖着软无力的腿，迈到紧闭双眼的女人身边，用手，轻轻的抚着那熟悉的脸颊，一下一下的抚摸着！
“姐姐胃癌晚期，拖了两个月了！”弟弟在一旁轻轻说着，女人的父母眼圈瞬间又泛红！
这个意外，真的太意外了，意外到连怎么回事都弄不清楚，意外到他感觉自己是在云端！胃癌，原来女人总是说没胃口总是不吃东西，说减肥是女人的终身事业，这一切都是借口，他责怪自己怎么就没用心去观察过；怪自己那么大意让女人独自撑着这最难熬的日子！女人去天堂后的半个月！从女人住的那个城市寄来一封信.

男人看着熟悉的字体,浑身颤抖：

亲爱的老公：
一定在想我了,是吗？一定是的.我在天堂都感觉到了呢！
老公啊，你说想和我结婚，真的好感动哦！原本以为你只是想和我在一起并没有和我共度一生的想法！老公，谢谢你的爱！和你在一起啊，真的是世上最幸福的事呢！每天早上醒来你都会喊手麻 ,嬉嬉，知道吗？老公，这是最最感动最最记忆犹新的片刻，在家的这些日子我都睡不着，没有你的手臂当枕头没有你的怀抱当港湾；但是我不后悔，我不愿意你看到我被病魔折磨的不成人形的样子，我相信换你你也不会让我看到自己痛苦的一面！老公，原谅我，以后只能在天上笑给你听了！

老公啊，一年前，我是多么希望时间能够定格，多么想永远永远都把你铭记于心底,但是发现怎么看你都看不够，我不知道要怎么做才能让心里舒服点，我知道你爱听我笑的声音，其实我自己也好喜欢自己的笑呢，所以就天天笑，让你永远都记得我，是不是好自私？我怕我走了之后你把我的一切都尘封进一个连碰都不会去触碰的角落里，我好怕，怕在那里我会冷，所以就用爱让你对我刻骨铭心！我把每天当成最后一天来过，所以，够了，今生有你，够了！

老公,上次帮你买的衣服袜子鞋子，你每年在我离开的那天穿上一套去看我好不好？十套，那就是十年，十年里，你只能用十天的时间想我，在特定的那天里，你才可以想起我也不准不想我，你知道我喜欢紫色玫瑰花，记得去找到哦，我对我老公可是很有信心的呢！记得，一年就是那一天能穿，别的时候不要去碰那些服装，如果你忘记了，那么在你老之后看到那些衣服，也许能想起我的这个要求呢！

嬉嬉，以后你娶老婆了，记得在那天的时候带来给我看，但是不要告诉她我是谁，是女人都会介意的，就说．．．呃．．．就说我是你的青梅竹马好不好？我好羡慕那些青梅竹马长大的人哦！以后你娶老婆了，那她就是“咱老婆”，你要对咱老婆好哦，就像对我这样，因为我在天上看着呢；虽然我会哭会吃醋，但是我更不舍得女孩子伤心；下辈子用力用力的缠你一辈子，直到老去！
老公,那次我任性和你提分手.但是现在的你一定也是在哭，对吗？不只是眼睛哭，帮我笑完今生，好吗？从现在开始，不要悲哀不要消沉；想我只要用十年里的十天；十年后把我从生命里彻底清除，我自私，但是我怕我的自私让你恨我；所以我就赖你十年，就十年好不好？十年，我们就真的忘记彼此，期待来生！已经在履行约定的傻孩子 .泪滴湿了信纸，男人痛哭失声！天渐渐的暗了，黑了，窗外灯光斜射了进来，男人整理好情绪；“老婆，我记得你十年，想你用十天，来生还你一辈子！”轻轻的，对着天际呢喃
.学会珍惜！
不要让爱你的人受到一丝一毫的伤害！
不要等到失去了，才痛不欲生！


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A Brainwave

Have a brainwave, and so, i read others' blog...

get many reflection from there....

some make me feel touch... T.T

some make me envy.... ><

some make me admire with it... =)

some make me agree with it.... ^^

but.... the actual feeling of mine....

kept by me deep in my heart....

i am thinking of....

the words that you told me....

i am thinking of....

YOU...

Weiwei

Memories...

read back those post here...
read back those comment that they left...

all the unhappy, sad, happy, and sweet memories i had before...

and get one friend which make me feeling touch when i look back the comment...
very thanks to him for all his encouragement and help....

VernTze...
haha....><
here to say that quite a long time didn't hear from you already...
how are you....
and that day...
actually i get a question....
last Christmas countdown...
when met you...
don't know why i get a weird feeling that you seem like a stranger to me....
not the vern tze that i know before...
and yet...
that make me scared of and dare not talk much with you....
dare not find you when see you in fb....
cause i scare that i will disturb as you know larh i talk very much one....
(sorry that i don't know why i will have that feeling of weird)

but....
hope to hear from you...^^

(is just my small reflection after read back those posts and comments here)

Relax~~~

So happy that i can relax like now...
while blogging here, listening to my favorite songs...
enjoying~~~
=D

what a happy week i have...
although its bit tiring for replacement of classes, but...
faster finish replace then after that will be more relax....

without the stranger for one week...
all of us was happy and enjoy...
even the stranger's roommate also seldom come to my room cause she said...
without the stranger, she felt more comfortable alone in her room...

well...
for me...
too....

since when, all of us already get use with the absence of the stranger...?
we also don't know..
what we know is...
all these things become worse and worse...
and now all of us also don't want to bother it anymore....

and now i am happy that nothing for me to worry about anymore...
can concentrate in my study...
concentrate in my mood of relaxing....^^

what a happy day i have today too....
yesterday slept early, this morning woke up late...
after that, done my room cleaning..
then continue my homework...
and finally....
finally....
last assignment done and also the mind map for the Chinese presentation done...^^v
hehehe><

so so so so so so HAPPY.....
i must relax enough enough before next Monday comes....^^

+ oil to myself....
^^
=D
=)

Marks important than Pride? / Nice April Fool Day^^

Marks important than Pride?

Question:

Marks more important than pride?

Answer:

100% yes (aimed at her)

Why will have such human that can don't want self-respect just because of the marks...?

i am wondering....

if i copy my friend's answer during my quiz, and i get good result for that...

i will not be happy also even i get high marks...(and of course i will not doing that)

but.....

how come she still can act like nothing happened....??

still can say thanks to me after she copied my answers and get a quite good result for it?

Well well well.....

why don't she think for it...

will other people look down upon her because of without any hard work and gain the good result?

If for you, will you look down upon those who gain any good result without any hard work?

(can leave some comment about it if u willing to)

Answer from myself is...

i will look down upon them....

if for those who already work hard but still didn't gain any good result...

i will admire them because at least i know they tried their best...

but for those who gain good result but just by copying,

i will look down upon them and she is now the one that being looked down by me...

haiz....

don't talk about that already...

let's talk about something which is happy....^^

Nice April Fool Day

It was a happy day for today because i get the chance to interact with 5 new friends which are from England...

Proud of myself because other than my uncle which is from England, i didn't have any chance to interact with others which is from other country...

and today...

i get such chance as there came 5 foreign teacher....

and it's happy because i still can interact with them very well as you know...

foreigner speak English very fast, fluently and sometimes we will cannot get what they are taking about....

so happy that i get all their facebook and MSN address so that i can keep in touch with them in the future....

and i also get the chance to have photos with them as the memory...^^

so happy with it...

night, celebrated Yoga birthday at Wong Kok...

what a nice day we have because this is also the first time we shopped till about 10pm ony back to college....

what a nice April fool day we had....^^