curse of 3 months

although i know that i should think positively..

but say truly...
i already start losing my confidence...

i don't know why...
just got the feel this few days....

and will i break the curse...??

cannot said that it is a curse,
but,
when every time i want to have it stable
and normally it will not more than 3 months...

1st time exactly 3 months,
2nd time also exactly 3 months....

and this time....
i had counted till the month of it, also 3 months....

so what still can be said about it???

maybe after this time i will not have it anymore,
cause it's not a nice feel....