its coming...T_T

haiz....
here again to cry....T_T
when look on the calendar, its nearer and nearer and nearer...
when it comes to 3rd of january of a new year, for others maybe still enjoying the last day for holiday..
but for me...
its not a glad day...
haiz....
i don't want back johor laaaarrrrrhhhhhhhh......
haiz.....
i don't want to seperate with my family, my friends and seniors here....and the place where i grown here.....
its a boring life there, not as happy as enjoy as what i taught...
although every month can get the allowance that others can't get...
but.......
is it what i want?
i started to think of it...
no choice...
but i still have to control myself from escaping....
when think of my family member...
as least i went there, don't need mummy to worry about the huge stone: the charge of my study fee....
haiz....
what still can i do??
haiz....
just to eccept the truth now....