let go everything....

i wanted to let go everything, can or not?
it so suffer now....
everything make me felt like cannot breath...
its too heavy....

what hapen actually...?
i also wanted to know....
since form 6...
form 6 change everything of me...
including my own characteristic...
i was not like that before...
i was just a students that others won't recognise...
but when up form 6...
its a big different for me...
i didn't even think before that i will can know such lot friends, have those nice friends...
especially with those seniors..
the 1st time i get to know so many seniors and friends....
really, i didn't even think of i will....
as i am a quiet girl last time...

and....
i already suit with my new characteristic...
a girl who will express everything out when she is unhappy or happy...
but is it good for me to have such changes?

at 1st, i feel happy that i get such changes...
and its good for me...
cause i know socialisation is very important....

but now...
since i started the new life there...
i started to wondering...
is the changes of myself good or not?
cause till now i still cannot suit with the people there....
i mean those other then my coursemate...
is it good for me to express out everything even when i am unhappy?

WHAT SHOULD I DO???
WHAT SHOULD I DO???

so, please at least let me express out here....
i just express out what i felt....
didn't meant to hurt anyone...
cause its suffer for me to keep keep keep and keep those things in my heart..
my heart just a small organ in my body...
if keep too much my heart will explode....
so those who view my file and feel annoy with what i am expressing here...
don't need to think too much, just straight away go to the bar on the top and click on the red cross button then ok already....