its coming...T_T

haiz....
here again to cry....T_T
when look on the calendar, its nearer and nearer and nearer...
when it comes to 3rd of january of a new year, for others maybe still enjoying the last day for holiday..
but for me...
its not a glad day...
haiz....
i don't want back johor laaaarrrrrhhhhhhhh......
haiz.....
i don't want to seperate with my family, my friends and seniors here....and the place where i grown here.....
its a boring life there, not as happy as enjoy as what i taught...
although every month can get the allowance that others can't get...
but.......
is it what i want?
i started to think of it...
no choice...
but i still have to control myself from escaping....
when think of my family member...
as least i went there, don't need mummy to worry about the huge stone: the charge of my study fee....
haiz....
what still can i do??
haiz....
just to eccept the truth now....

Merry Christmas

25th of december 2009.....
Merry Christmas...
although it is none of my celebration day..
but this year, its so meaningful to me...
the 1st time i celebrated it...
went countdown with my dear seniors....
all treat me very good...^^
say truely...
i am already very happy yesterday night...
cause its the 1st time for me =) and maybe it will be the last time bacause next time, maybe its hard for us to meet up again =(

and its also the 1st time i can so close...............(not available to express out here)
actually all this time....
something change on me...i know what's the meaning of something...
so a lot of people mistaken on something of me...
but just let it be larh,(privacy)^^
maybe the relation for us now is better...

seniors keep on asked me...
asked me to tell the truth is it very boring for yesterday night...
say truly....
its not...
although maybe for you all not a good countdown day, but for me....
its the best...
cause i get back something which is the memory with those in the gang..
its memorable for me...
really....
its nice...
wanted to thanks all of them in the gang that 4 guys......
thanks for everything....
really thanks.......


Merry Christmas ^^V

Just back...

huh... tired...exhausted...
just back from Cameron Highland today...
went there on the 7th of december...

what a fool we get because when we reached the Pudu bus station on the 7th, we just knew that totally didn't have the bus for that time...
so waited till 12.30 afternoon...
but that stupid bus...
when the clock shows 1pm++ the bus only appeared....
haiz...
when reached up the Cameron hill(Tanah Rata), its already 6pm ++
ShuJing came to fetch us...
she brought us to the Pasar Malam(Brinchang) there...
a lot of things there...
haha...
and what a nice weather...cold and cool...
after that Wei Keat, Rou Xin and Xin Zhan reached...
we went to meet them then went to the apartment that we had already book earlier at Tringkap...
wow...quite a nice apartment cause, what ever things that we need also got like, TV + astro, refrigerator, cooker, sofa and many more......
one night just RM150...its worth...^^

then we started to prepare our dinner, steamboat...haha
all of us chit chat while having our dinner...
full of happiness and of course our stomach is full too....
haha...

8th of december...
woke up by 7am early morning, so cold the weather...
after prepared, we start our journey there after Shu Jing came...
first, we took the bus to the stall by the road side to see what to buy...
then, our next destination was the bee farm...
took a lot of photos with the 'bees' there...
then we went to butterfly garden...
wah...
seriously...i very scare of insect, but this is the first time i am so close with them...
the people there took the butterfly put on my body...
aiks...
scary...
then he put on my hand....
Oh My God........!!!!
but its a nice experience i get...haha
maybe next time i won't do that already...

we continue our journey to Kea farm after our lunch...
what make us so excited was, when we was having our lunch, i saw Singapore's actor, wah.... the first time i meet actor outside and saw them not through the TV but is through my naked eyes...haha....so excited...but we just see them far away cause they already get into the car....
when we reached Kea farm, Hsiu Hsiu saw the car that look like the actor's car....
then i look on the car plat...
Oh My God again...
yaya...i shouted to them....its theirs car...
Xin Zhan was so excited and we also pay attention to see wether can meet them or not...
and we were so so so so lucky...
we saw him again..
but this time with his wife...another Singapore actor...
haha...so lucky...and we were so excited...
then Wei keat ask him to approve his status...
we were not wrong...
and i ask for his permission to take photo with him...
so nice...the first time take photo with actor...
haha
that photo, very memorable to me...
what a nice present from myself to my own...
haha....will keep it nicely...^^

then its time fro us to back Brinchang, we went to Pasar Malam again cause Wei Keat, Rou Xin and Xin Zhan missed it yesterday...
after bought what we wanted, then we back our apartment...
rest...sleep...
all of us was exhausted...haha...-0% energy...
then we had our dinner at 10pm...
steamboat again...
wah....full full full....^^
12am reached....
what a memorable day for me...
the first time i can listen birthday songs from friends...
thanks to all of them, Hsiu Hsiu, Kezin, Hooi Hien, Rou Xin, Wei Keat and Xin Zhan.
love you all nurr...^^
then we played until 3am only went to bed...
so so so so cold again...haha

the next day...cannot woke up by time cause slept very late the day before...
then woke up by 8.45am...
after prepared, wait for Shu Jing fetched us to the bus station...^^
back home journey...
what a nice and memorable trip...^^
will went there someday again....^^
nice place there...^^
haha...







(want more photos? my facebook lorh...^^)

ying ying's birthday...

just back from centro.....
celebrated ying ying's 18th birthday...
haha
cannot celebrate my own birthday with friends, help friends celebrate also felt happy already...^^
<...take care and happy always orh, and sorry for just now didn't talk with u more but, i will never forget you de...^^ good luck in every things...friends forever yah...>

then at there, those guys from S6...
haha...
pattern still didn't change...
haha...still the same...
happy to meet them actually...
although didn't chat too much with them, but at least saw them, already satisfy, at least let me knew that all my friends are fine...^^
they will always in my heart...
although not so close with them, but i guarantee and promise, they all will never ever got the chance to out from my heart...haha
friends forever...^^v

here again...

a very long time din't post anyting here already....
well mostly is beacuse of.......
LAZY LAZY...
but now...
wanted to find a place to express....
yesterday night, cannot sleep at all...slept at about 3am....
i open my photo album...
look back on the photos...
refresh back on those memories i got in form 6...
although just that few weeks i am there...but
the most sweetest memories i get there....
miss all of the seniors very much....
seniors who treat me with their true heart...
not like those seniors there...
all with masks...(just some of them are not)
then the 'ku bao' ymei back again...
cried out all my sadness, my unhappiness, my anger...
missing feels all ran out from the red pumping organ...
well....what happened to me?
ya, the life there is enjoying, nothing to be worry about my studies...
but...
the relation there not good at all..
what a tradition is that...??!!
senior and junior...(still can be accepted)
but...even at outside out of the college, shopping mall....
cannot call their names, unless they allow...even my mum also said - action

a piece of paper drop out from the album...
a piece of paper with golden wishes from seniors...
their signatures and wishes...
still can be remembered that, that was my last night with them...
a memorable night...
seniors all helping me sign as my keepsake...
and the little gift that i received from him...
i will never ever forget,the night full of sadness(for me)....(tears drop without stopping)
miss them even more...
jocelyn, chor yau, chze hsien, yin yin, and other seniors..........

haiz...but this is the truth now...
what i can do is......
comfort myself with those benefits that others won't get in form 6....
haha
allowance...
every month spend my own allowance, my own money, don't need ask from parents, don't need they worry about my pocket money...
at least can help them to reduce their burden....
thats what i comfort my own...

missing feel stil not yet away from my brain, my heart......
what can i do....?
just to continue miss all of my friends n seniors...