What to do? no choices

haiz...

suddenly woke up 6am early in the morning, can't sleep anymore...

my mind flash back to last night...
well......
it's happy that he can walk out from those unhappiness, it's happy to saw his message, it's happy that he is happy, it's happy that everything goes fine on him....

but i asked myself....

"if i again, 'drop' into it, how?"
"can i take serious on it?"
"if i take serious on it, what will happen?"
"what will happen next?"
"what should i do?"

i keep on asked myself...
cannot be ignored that the feeling is exist...


i very scare of the feeling of getting hurt again...
it's not nice to have it...
no one would like to have it...
but,
is it that i should be prepared to face it one more time since i knew myself that i am going to drop in it again.....?

what to do?
no choices...